Today was the first day in the rest of my life…
Green Day – Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)
Today…after 20 years in the same company, doing the same thing…I declined to care more than I should. Today, I stepped down and decided to begin my own life.
Baby steps will lead me there… but I am no longer “in charge” and the boulder rolled off my shoulders and allowed me to almost… feel free. I gave my life, my health, my heart. I did all I could and now I’m done.
I soon begin a new job in an office “cube” surrounded by the same friends and characters that I’ve known and cared about all these years … Some of them spent an exuberant day making a space for me to call my own. I felt truly loved by these crazy people, lying on floors…with drills and screwdrivers whirling. I watched as my little refrigerator was rolled out of my very beloved office with a bit of sadness… I wished I taken a memory photo…
But If I am ever to create my own business…through those baby steps… I must learn to let go.
Today was the first day in the rest of my life…
Wish me luck…
August 17, 2007 at 9:19 am
Wow! Heather, that is wonderful! You are brave and strong and very smart and VERY talented. I am so happy for you that you have done this. We all await your creations! I wish you much good luck , little sister..
August 17, 2007 at 2:05 pm
Congratulations! You’ll have to talk more about what prompted it, did you have the other job ready before you left?, how did it transpire? Reason I ask is I’m feeling so lifeless at my job, and as I was showering I ran through a host of options I might have. I’m feeling stuck.
August 17, 2007 at 3:16 pm
Good luck! though you don’t need it. It is apparent in all the work do. You can achieve any goal you set out to do. Your photos just get better and better.
August 17, 2007 at 5:13 pm
OMG! & Wowee!! You better email me with details. I’m glad to hear that you are making use of your multitude of talents. Scary, yes. Just like any change in your life. Though I believe it will be fulfilling and worthwhile. It will have its ups and downs, but I bet you will say “I wouldn’t have it any other way.” Kind of like bringing home a new baby. Frightening at first, but the best high in the whole world. I wouldn’t have it any other way!
August 18, 2007 at 2:10 am
All the best of luck !!
The universe conspires to help the faithful and followers of their dreams.
I walk the same path……..
August 18, 2007 at 3:48 am
Thanks for all the kind words….especially those of m6fan. I’m going to print that and hang it over my “cube” tomorrow!
I’m still with the company…but with a much lower profile job and alot less hours. I’ll assist the plant manager with clients and a few other things…but leave room in the day to start my own thing. It will incorporate my own photography and hopefully…eventually… I would also like to represent other folks with creative dreams. And yb, if you ever feel like showing some of those paintings…let me know when I have a place to hang them. Like I said…baby steps.
To answer your question…yes ybonesy, I did know ahead that I was leaving my position…it’s been 6 months and the best kept secret that plant ever had. I think they were hoping I’d change my mind.
When you are stuck…it’s scary… to make changes
and more often than not people stay in bad situations for financial reasons… you just plain and simple can’t get out.
The other 3 ladies above (my lovely Sister’s and the Czech in the group of 4) will tell you that I have worked like a dog for a very long time…for someone other than myself. I have been unhappy and restless for sometime and about 6 months ago…it will sound crazy…but I felt like I was being lead in a certain direction. Pieces that never fell into place…suddenly did. And now I can’t help but believe that I am somehow being guided by my Father. Our bond was that strong.
Today…My cube was all ready for me by noon. Kathy, you will be proud to know that your little brother was the only one with a drill that I didn’t fear
I had very few “you’ve just got to make this happen or the world, as we know it, will end” calls and even fewer people that “needed” me. It may sound strange but it felt great not to be needed.
Everyone loved my decor…right down to the rubber ducks.The Mac Room boys started cleaning their own cubes and talking of sprucing up their own areas…it was rather cute. 4 folks actually cried about the move…but absolutely everyone said they understood my need for the change. They are good people.
August 18, 2007 at 1:04 pm
I knew that one of the drill yielding handy men was my “little” bro. When I read your farewell note I thought it had to be. Keep me posted.
August 18, 2007 at 11:25 pm
Good luck, congrats, and I hope you bought a one-way ticket!
Random factor/synchronicity – I’m going to try and do something on my blog about this stuff.
August 26, 2007 at 12:31 am
shoot for the stars